Monday, November 8, 2010



Imagine this. In your hand is a very precious creation, so fragile, so valuable that if you keep on holding, it would either stay or fall apart. But you loved this creature so much, so much that letting it go would be like letting go of you...r life as well. So much that sometimes you wished it would be forever. So much that you tend to be selfish at times so as you could make it stay for as long as you like. Don’t we all wish something “so good” could be forever? Don’t we all hope that happiness is there to stay?

There comes a time in our lives when we stumble on a person that is someone “so nice” and “almost perfect” and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person (sometimes without even realizing it). This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually guzzles our thoughts and actions to the extent that we tagged it as one of those what we say “too good to be true” thing.

The sad part there is when we begin to realize that, this particular person feels totally nothing ……….. A “thing” that would be forever a “thing” nothing more, nothing less… just a thing! You’re just another person for him/her, and that’s the fact! Then in our desperate attempt to get closer (or at least be noticed), our efforts are still futile and we end up sorry for ourselves.

One person said, never ever let your heart run your life, as much as you can, always be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Try to listen not merely on what your feelings is invoking on you as a person but more importantly listen to reason as well.

Letting go of someone doesn’t necessarily mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you have to let that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free (in the real sense of it), but it is also setting yourself free from all animosity, revulsion, and resentment that was long kept in your heart. You have to let go because the bitterness that often puts away the strengths and weakens the littlest hope, making our lives more miserable than ever. Worst, presenting yourself as the “most affected one” sets the nastiest impression of all time—"what a loser"!

The trick there is… always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow…

We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness comes only with open acceptance of what reality is today. You really don’t have to forget someone you love (‘cause it’s hard). What we need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for what we have become. I think it’s better that we give off that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Hmmm… “Who could it be” is the next interesting question to ponder. Let go of yesterday and love will find it’s way back to you. And when it does, pray hard that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime…



Tuesday, November 2, 2010


Its been quite a while that i have
been feeling so weak. so sad... so
confused.. so disturbed. so broken..
so fragile.. so emotional. its been a
month now.... and still the same
feeling consuming me... and every time
I remember everything i cant help my
tears from falling.. Its because of so
much hurt I feel inside. I want to get
over it.. but its so hard... They said
make yourself busy.. I tried.. but it
keeps hunting me.. It keeps on saying
how stupid I become. Telling me that I
should have not nurtured it in the
first place. That I should have
followed my head and not my heart..

From the beginning I know it will hurt 
me so much.. But I was so hard headed
to believe it because for once It made
me happy.. and made someone happy...
But i knew it was wrong...

since the time I broke my promises to
someone who has been with me for
years, encouraging me, supporting me,
and loving me so much, I said I'll
never make one again.

I'll never make a forever promise.. 

I'll never make an only you promise..

I'll never make a forever us promise....

I'll never make an only yours promise...

This are promises that are usually
broken.. when you said it at first you
were so certain about the future..
because you're so in love.. so much
feeling that you can't control.. never
thinking that time may change
everything... that in time every word
you said will be just plain words..
with the broken promises I made, I
know I betrayed that person. I caused
so much hurt just to have my own
selfish happiness. I know I have hurt a lot
of people involved. And knowing that I
did, It consumes me inside.. keep
on telling how I ruined the hope I
have given. the promises I made...
I've been trying to make myself busy.
Trying to forget what happened.. try
to enjoy myself to forget.. try to
occupy my thoughts with fun stuff..
anything that can get me off the sad
and horrible thoughts that I have. But
I know its just momentarily. When I'm
alone... when I'm quiet... it again
enters my head. and made me think again.
I believe I was plain stupid. 
Instead of promising someone something
impossible to fulfill, it's better
to do your best instead... and give 
your best effort in everything...

It is true words are cheap. they are 
just words. that's why we call them
sweet nothings.. because they are just 
nothing.. they will only have meaning
when they are fulfilled. when they are
acted upon. I was stupid to believe
and to value the words that was said..
I learned that it isn't true that when
people say they wont change, they
really wont.. Instead of holding on to
those words from the beginning, expect
that they will change... in the
shortest period of time possible. 
in that way you won't be expecting too
much. and when that time comes 
that they'll leave you... 
time that they have changed...

hopefully it won't hurt that much... 

Never ever believe people  when 
they say that they'll never leave you... 
never believe when they say they'll love 
you forever.. That they'll improve their
love... that you should value the
words they say... never ever...
especially when the relationship just
started... cause if you  do and it
didn't came out the way they said
it... you will just feel stupid... you
will just feel sorry for yourself... 

stupid for believing every bit of it...
especially when you tried your very
best.. gave all your efforts.. and in
trying you already hurt a lot of people
around you... you learned to lie.. you
tried to give time.. you tried to find
ways even though how risky it takes..
but you still tried... because it
makes you happy.. and makes someone
happy... but after all those happiness,
when everything changes.. 
you'll be left wounded.. left broken.
left hurt...

and when it really hurts a lot...

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Convince Yourself You Can

if you feel like you can't make it.. convince yourself you can... encourage yourself that you can... keep on cheering yourself you can.... nobody can help you but you yourself alone.. and then you'll realize.. you already made it through...

SMILE... in time.. everything will be alright..

in time...

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Deep Inside

Sometimes you're doing things beyond your control.
You weren't forced to do it. But you did it.  It's your
emotions that dictates your actions. And then
you'll get confused. You'll keep on thinking why.
You know what's right and what's not. But It seems like
you don't know how to choose between those two.It's like
you're trying to justify the wrong to be right. Yet you know
what you're doing is wrong, and it means you're gonna hurt someone
in the end, and also be hurt from what you did. It may be easy at first
but then you'll start to realize that its getting harder and harder.
More difficult everyday. you become more attached. but then
you still know deep inside you that it shouldn't be. It mustn't be.
you know the consequences it will bring. You know that in the end you'll
be suffering. you know that in the end it will hurt a lot. you keep on
making yourself believe that nothing's going to happen. Pretending that
everything will be ok. Thinking that it will be easy. Forcing yourself to
believe that your actions are justifiable. But deep inside you're confused.
you're trying to break free from the problem you made. Wanting and wishing
that you should have not done it in the first place.But you know part of
you is happy for doing it. 

Still... you don't know what to do... you don't
know what steps to take. To either pursue it.. or to stop. To let go or to
hold on... To keep it or to put it away.. to nurture and cherish or to stop it from


Sunday, August 15, 2010


just want to share this nice song I heard from church... Hope you guys like it! =)

Often you wonder why tears come into your eyes
And burdens seem to be much more than you can bear
But God is standing near, He sees your falling tears
And tears are a language God understands.

God sees the tears of a brokenhearted soul
He sees your tears and hears them when they fall
God weeps along with man and He takes him by the hand
Tears are a language God understands.

When grief has left you low it causes tears to flow
When things have not turned out the way that you had planned
But God won't forget you His promises are true
And tears are a language God understands.

God sees the tears of a brokenhearted soul
He sees your tears and hears them when they fall
God weeps along with man and He takes him by the hand
 Tears are a language that my God He understands.

God weeps along with man and He takes him by the hand
Tears are a language God understands.

To listen and download the song here's the link:

Tuesday, August 10, 2010


by xristel

Ano ba itong si redrope?

Kaming mga babae na naman ang nakita. Lalake, agrabyado. Lalake,
kinakawawa. Lalake, hindi maintindihan. Hmmp, parang masyado yatang nagisa ang mga kabaro ko.

Tungkol sa pagiging patas sa ngalan ng pag-ibig, kami naman ang laging talo a, hindi kayo. Kami ang laging lugi, kami ang lagging nawawalan at iniiwan.

Kapag ngumiti ka na ng konti, nag-ayos ng konti pagkakamalan ka nang malandi.

Hindi pangseryosohang relasyon. Marinig lang nila na malakas kang magsalita, palengkera ka na. T.O. kagad sa kanila iyon. Mahilig silang tumingin sa

mga babaeng sexy manamit, kulang nalang makita na kaluluwa. Pero kapag babaeng seryosohin at gustong ligawan dapat disente, dapat mala-anghel ang mukha, dapat mukhang inosente. Tapos kami pa raw ang mahilig mamili?

Parang baliktad yata?

Ok, ayan nanliligaw na si lalake. Dapat pakipot ka para suyuin ka,para habulin ka pa lalo.

Kapag hindi ka naman nagpakipot “easy to get” naman ang tingin sa iyo.

Hindi ka na seseryosohin.

Sino bang may sabing magpaalila kayo, di naman namin hawak ang buhay niyo.

Natural lang na magtiis kayo, may gusto kayo sa amin eh. Kapag nakuha niyo na

iyon wala na lahat ng mga paghihirap niyo, babaliktad na ang sitwasyon kami naman ang mamromroblema.

Para lang kayong may gustong bilhin na bagay. Upang mabili ito kailangan munang magsakripisyo,magtipid, magtiis. Pag nabili na at mapagsawaan wala na, balewala na. Diyan ka na sa tabi-tabi. !

“Tawagan nalang kita pag trip ko o kaya’y pag may gusto akong ipagawa sa iyo.”

Ano pa ba? E di sinagot mo na diba. Utang na loob pa natin yun. Dahil naghirap daw sila sa panliligaw dapat masuklian natin iyon ng higit pa. Sa umpisa kailangan malambing ka, maayos at laging magsisilbi sa kanya. Ayaw daw nilang humawak ng relasyon, pero kapag ikaw naman ang nagmando, aba, masasakal naman. Sasabihin pa sa iyo

“demanding” ka.

Meron ka pang maririnig na

“I think we need space”

at kung anu-ano pang ek-ek. Sino rin may sabing di dapat kami magpakabait, maging devoted at faithful? Kapag kami ang sumaway niyang mga iyan, iba na ang tingin sa amin.

Malandi na kami, haliparot, pakawala, makikay at kung anu-ano pang mga bansag ang itatawag sa amin.

Kapag kayo gumawa noon, ok lang. Lalake kayo eh, macho kayo pag ginawa niyo yon. Kaya kami, walang magawa. Magpapakaburo at

magpapakamadre nalang. Kapag nagloko na kayo ano pa bang magagawa namin? Eh di iiyak nalang. Wala namang ibang magagawa eh.

Tungkol naman sa tinatawag niyong pagdedemand namin. Hindi kami nagdedemand! Karapatan lang namin iyon. Karapatan namin na lambingin niyo kami, icheck at ipakita sa amin na mahal niyo kami.

Hindi rin ibig sabihin na mas sincere kayo sa amin. Seryoso rin naman

kami ah. At ang maturity wala yan sa edad. Mas maaga nga kaming magmature sa inyo. Ang isang 19 year old na lalake eh, isip 15 pa yun. It follows iyan sa lahat ng age group. Mas mataas pa nga kung minsan ang pagbawas ng level of maturity. Kayo na ang mag-math. Pati yung pag-iyak namin pinupuntirya niyo. Kesyo drama daw. Diba kapag umiyak ka nagbuhos ka ng emosyon diyan. Ano tingin niyo sa amin mga artista?!

Alam niyo iyon?

Yun bang kulang nalang ay lumuha ka na ng dugo, pero hindi ka pa rin papansinin.

Sasabihan ka pang tigilan na ang pagdradrama.

Hindi nila kami maiintindihan kapag nagseselos kami.Bakit naman kami magseselos kung wala kaming nakikita? Mas iba kaming magmahal. Mas masarap.

Kapag natapos na ang lambingan, eh di siyempre iwanan blues na.Kami pa raw ang nagsawa, kami pa raw ang nagtritrip lang. Sino ba ang lumalayas kapag may nakita nang bago, sino ba ang mayabang, sino ba ang nagmamalaki? Kami ba?

Kami ang walang choice. Kasi ang babae pag sinabing
“break na tayo” 
lambingin lang iyan ng konti balikan blues na iyan.

Kapag ang lalake ang umayaw, pucha, bahala ka diyan. Kahit mag-tambling ka pa sa harap niya. Wa-epek. Umiyak ka ng bato.Wa-epek. Tsk, tsk, tsk. Tapos sila pa raw ang kawawa.

Post-break up, mahal pa ng babae si lalaki. Sasamantalahin ni lalaki. Magpapagawa ng kung anu-ano.

Naaalala ka lang kapag may kailangan sa iyo.

Kapag pumangit ka after the break up, magpapasalamat sila na iniwan ka nila. Kapag gumanda ka naman, ipagkakalat nila sa buong sangkatauhan na naging girlfriend ka niya. Sala sa init sala sa lamig talaga.

Ano ba namang buhay to? Ang hirap ding maging babae ano. Kala nila laging sila nalang. Lagi rin kaming naiiwan sa ere. In-love din kami.

Ang mga lalake talaga, oo.


by redrope

*grabe. usapang lalake*

*sindi ng yosi*



Musta na, pare? Ako, okay lang. Eto. Nagmumuni-muni. Nag-iisip. Minsan talaga may mga bagay na hindi ko maintindihan. Ewan ko ba.

*hinga ng malalim*

Bakit ba ganun pare, ilang beses ko na pinag-aralan pero lagi na lang lumalabas na parang kahit ’sang anggulo mo tingnan, hindi  nagiging patas para sa mga lalake ang ilang bagay pagdating sa pagmamahal.

*tingin sa stars*

Minsan naiisip ko,

alam kaya ng mga babae ang hirap ng lalake na gumawa ng first move paramagtapat ng pagmamahal?

E yung hirap na dinadaanan sa panliligaw at pagsuyo sa mahal nya?

Ang feeling ng masaktan pag nabasted?

Malamang-lamang siguro,hindi ano. Wala naman yata silang alam sa mga paghihirap naten e. Ang alam lang ata nila e mamili, manakit, at magsaya. Tingin mo?

*tingin sa malayo*

Lagi naman ganun. Una pa lang,lalake na ang naghihirap.

Hassle saten ang panliligaw pero bago pa yun, kung ano pang diskarte ang gagawin naten para masabi naten sa kanila na mahal natin sila. Alam kaya nila yun?

Mahirap magsabi na mahal mo na yung babae, diba?

Tapos liligawan pa naten. Patutunayan na mahal nga sila.

Susuyuin to-the-max.Maghahatid sa bahay, tutulungan, sasabayan, palalamunin,pagtyatyagaan, lahat na. Kulang na lang e pagsilbihan mo nang walang sahod.

At ano ang kapalit?

Well,depende sa trip nila.

Oo tol, sa trip lang nila. Wala silang pake kesehodang mahal natin talaga sila. Basta ang alam nila, pag di nila tayo trip, isang malaking HINDE ang makukuha naten, kahit umiyak pa tayo ng dugo o lumuhod sa mga asing buu-buo. Para lang silang namimili ng damit na di man lang sinusukat bago ayawan.

Kaya kahit mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal natin, sorry tayo.

Hindi nila alam kungmahal mo sila. Kailangan mong maabot ang kanilang mga standards o uuwi ka lang na bad trip, iiling-iling, at minsan, luhaan.

Wala tayong magagawa, marami silang alibi.

“Hindi pa ‘ko ready eh..”,

“Sorry pero I think we should just be friends..”,

“Ha? Uhhmm..nagpapatawa ka ba? Hahahaha..” 

“Better luck next time na lang muna, okay lang?”, 

“Give me a decade. Pag-iisipan ko muna..”, 

“Para lang kitang kapatid e..”,

yaddah yaddah. Isang malaking pagsasaklob ng langit at lupa ‘yon para saten.

*kuha ng bote ng beer*



At hindi lang ‘yon tol. Sa pre-relationship stage pa lang yon. Pag sinagot na nila tayo, satin pa rin ang hassle.

Tayo daw ang mga lalake kaya tayo ang hahawak ng relasyon. Tayo ang aayos kung may gulo; tayo ang dapat magpapakabait; tayo ang magtatyaga; tayo ang magiging devoted at faithful; tayo, tayo tayo.

Sila? Ummm? Teka, isipin ko.


Sila ang magsasabi kung anong oras kayo dapat magmeet; sila ang magtetext ng mga mushy at kabalbalang texts; sila ang magdedemand sayo ng kung anu-ano; sila ang magbabawal; sila ang magsasabi kung kelan ka dapat mag-shave, kung kelan ka pwedeng tumawag sa bahay nila, kung kelan sila di dapat bad tripin dahil meron sila, at kung kelan ka korni.

Ewan. Ganun ata talaga.

*kuha ng bote ng beer*



Hindi pa yun tapos pare, dahil dapat tayo ang bahala kung ano ang magiging takbo ng relasyon. Pag maganda, edi okay.

Pag may problema, kasalanan naten. Haay buhay. Minsan talaga kung tutuusin sakit sila ng ulo. Kaya lang mahal naten kaya di na natin iniintindi yun.

*hinga ng malalim*

Pero alam mo tol, feeling ko mas sincere pa tayo magmahal sa kanila. Alam mo yun, iba tayo magmahal e. Hindi lang parang laru-laro lang. Seryoso. At kung magmahal man tayo,lubus-lubusan. Mas mature. Hindi yung parang pambata lang gaya nila na kesyo magseselos-selos, iiyak-iyak, iina-inarte, dadradrama, at kung anu-ano pa. Hindi lang kababawan. Ka-mushyhan. Kababaihan. Iba tayo pag nagmahal.

*hinga ng malalim*

*tingin sa malayo ulit*

At ito pa ang pinakamasaklap.


Ang ending ng relasyon. Sa mga panahong ‘to, either sawa na sila, hindi na tayo trip, may nahanap na silang better saten, o kaya they need f*cking space and time muna.

Bad trip no? Wala na naman tayong choice. Sila ang masusunod.

At ano pa ang kasamang hassle don?Syempre wasak na ang imahe naten. Tayo ang lalabas na may kasalanan.Na playboy.

Na nagpapaiyak.


Tayo siyempre ang mga antagonist at sila yung mga bidang inaapi at parang mga pusang iiyak-iyak.

Ang ending:

mag-ooffer sila ng “friendship” kuno matapos tayong pagsawaan, lahat ng gifts naten nasa kanila, sawi tayo sa pag-ibig, “player” na ang image naten, at higit sa lahat, mag-iisip kung papaano ipagpapatuloy ang buhay. Maiiwan tayong tulala, mag-iisip kung saan nagkamali, mamomroblema sa pag-aadjust sa pagiging single, at di na naman makakatulog.

Haay buhay. Ang hirap maging lalake. Lagi ka na lang naiiwan sa ere. Ano? Hindi ka na nagsalita? In-love ka no?

Ako, kamusta? Eto.Yoyosi-yosi. Bubuntong-buntong hininga. Titingin-tingin sa bituin. Mumuni-muni. Lalagok-lagok ng alak.

Ang mga babae talaga,oo.

Buhay Estudyante at Buhay Nagtatrabaho

Habang nag-aaral kapa nagmamadali kang
gumadruwayt. Wish mo na makakapagtrabaho kana.
Nangangarap na mabili lahat ng gusto mo.
Iniisip na mas madali yung nagtatrabaho kesa nag-aaral pa.

Lahat ng yan ay naisip ko na rin.
Pinangarap ko na rin yan noong nag-aaral pa ako.
Pero ngayon na may trabaho na ako. Iba pala talaga.
Naisip ko na mas madali pa pala noon ng nag-aaral pa ako,
Hindi mo na kailangan paghirapan ang pera. Binibigay lang yun ng
parents mo. Wala karing mga responsibilidad na dapat isipin.
Lahat madali lang. Gigising ka ng umaga, nakahanda na pagkain mo.
Maliligo ka nalang at magbibihis tapos alis kana papuntang School.
Pero pag nagtatrabaho kana, lalo na't malayo ka sa pamilya mo,
gigising ka ng maaga para magluto ng makakain mo.
Kailangan mo rin mag isip ng mga kakainin mo sa mga susunod na araw. Kailangan mo magbudget. Magbabayad kapa ng renta mo sa boarding house o kaya apartment. May tubig at kuryente kapang babayaran. Telepono at internet pati load mo. Magpapadala kapa sa parents mo at sa mga relatives mo na nangangailangan. Kung may mga nakakabatang kapatid kapa, tutulong ka dn sa pag-aaral nila. Ikaw na rin ang maglalaba, mamalantsa ng sarili mong mga damit. Lahat ng hindi mo nagagawa noon na gawaing bahay, nagagawa mo na ngayon. Wala kang choice. Sarili mo lang ang maasahan mo. Marami kang dapat isipin. Pag andyan kana sa punto na yun saka mo maiisip na sana estudyante ako ulit. mas madali pa yun kesa
buhay ngayon. Iisipin mo na dati pag may gusto kang bagay, hihingi kalang sa parents mo. Ngayon pagtatrabahuhan mo para makuha mo ang gusto mo. Kung hindi ka naman marunong humawak ng pera mo, mababaon ka sa utang. Hindi dahil malaki ang sweldo mo, waldas kalang ng waldas. Nang istudyante kapa hindi mo na kailangan isipin yun. Andyan ang parents mo para gagastos sa iyo. Lahat gagawin nila para sa iyo.

Ang maganda lang pag nagtatrabaho kana ay natututo kang maging independent. Natututo kang tumayo sa sarili mong mga paa na hindi mo na kailangan sumandal sa parents mo. Hindi mo na kailangan humingi. At sa punto rin na iyon saka mo malalaman kung anu talaga ang buhay. Kung gaano kahirap pala sa parents natin na
pag-isipan ang maraming bagay para sa atin. Paanu nila pagkasyahin ang sahod nila mabigay lang lahat nag pangangailangan natin.

At isa pa, hindi porke graduate kana e makakapagtrabaho ka kaagad. Mahirap na rin maghanap ng trabaho ngayon. Maraming kakompetensya sa pag-aapply. Maraming adjustments na dapat ring gawin. Mahirap talaga.. 

Kaya habang nag-aaral kapa, ipagpahalagahan mo yun. dahil pagkatapos nyan... magwiwish ka nalang na sana... estudyante ka ulit.