Monday, November 8, 2010



Imagine this. In your hand is a very precious creation, so fragile, so valuable that if you keep on holding, it would either stay or fall apart. But you loved this creature so much, so much that letting it go would be like letting go of you...r life as well. So much that sometimes you wished it would be forever. So much that you tend to be selfish at times so as you could make it stay for as long as you like. Don’t we all wish something “so good” could be forever? Don’t we all hope that happiness is there to stay?

There comes a time in our lives when we stumble on a person that is someone “so nice” and “almost perfect” and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person (sometimes without even realizing it). This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually guzzles our thoughts and actions to the extent that we tagged it as one of those what we say “too good to be true” thing.

The sad part there is when we begin to realize that, this particular person feels totally nothing ……….. A “thing” that would be forever a “thing” nothing more, nothing less… just a thing! You’re just another person for him/her, and that’s the fact! Then in our desperate attempt to get closer (or at least be noticed), our efforts are still futile and we end up sorry for ourselves.

One person said, never ever let your heart run your life, as much as you can, always be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Try to listen not merely on what your feelings is invoking on you as a person but more importantly listen to reason as well.

Letting go of someone doesn’t necessarily mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you have to let that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free (in the real sense of it), but it is also setting yourself free from all animosity, revulsion, and resentment that was long kept in your heart. You have to let go because the bitterness that often puts away the strengths and weakens the littlest hope, making our lives more miserable than ever. Worst, presenting yourself as the “most affected one” sets the nastiest impression of all time—"what a loser"!

The trick there is… always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow…

We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness comes only with open acceptance of what reality is today. You really don’t have to forget someone you love (‘cause it’s hard). What we need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for what we have become. I think it’s better that we give off that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Hmmm… “Who could it be” is the next interesting question to ponder. Let go of yesterday and love will find it’s way back to you. And when it does, pray hard that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime…



Tuesday, November 2, 2010


Its been quite a while that i have
been feeling so weak. so sad... so
confused.. so disturbed. so broken..
so fragile.. so emotional. its been a
month now.... and still the same
feeling consuming me... and every time
I remember everything i cant help my
tears from falling.. Its because of so
much hurt I feel inside. I want to get
over it.. but its so hard... They said
make yourself busy.. I tried.. but it
keeps hunting me.. It keeps on saying
how stupid I become. Telling me that I
should have not nurtured it in the
first place. That I should have
followed my head and not my heart..

From the beginning I know it will hurt 
me so much.. But I was so hard headed
to believe it because for once It made
me happy.. and made someone happy...
But i knew it was wrong...

since the time I broke my promises to
someone who has been with me for
years, encouraging me, supporting me,
and loving me so much, I said I'll
never make one again.

I'll never make a forever promise.. 

I'll never make an only you promise..

I'll never make a forever us promise....

I'll never make an only yours promise...

This are promises that are usually
broken.. when you said it at first you
were so certain about the future..
because you're so in love.. so much
feeling that you can't control.. never
thinking that time may change
everything... that in time every word
you said will be just plain words..
with the broken promises I made, I
know I betrayed that person. I caused
so much hurt just to have my own
selfish happiness. I know I have hurt a lot
of people involved. And knowing that I
did, It consumes me inside.. keep
on telling how I ruined the hope I
have given. the promises I made...
I've been trying to make myself busy.
Trying to forget what happened.. try
to enjoy myself to forget.. try to
occupy my thoughts with fun stuff..
anything that can get me off the sad
and horrible thoughts that I have. But
I know its just momentarily. When I'm
alone... when I'm quiet... it again
enters my head. and made me think again.
I believe I was plain stupid. 
Instead of promising someone something
impossible to fulfill, it's better
to do your best instead... and give 
your best effort in everything...

It is true words are cheap. they are 
just words. that's why we call them
sweet nothings.. because they are just 
nothing.. they will only have meaning
when they are fulfilled. when they are
acted upon. I was stupid to believe
and to value the words that was said..
I learned that it isn't true that when
people say they wont change, they
really wont.. Instead of holding on to
those words from the beginning, expect
that they will change... in the
shortest period of time possible. 
in that way you won't be expecting too
much. and when that time comes 
that they'll leave you... 
time that they have changed...

hopefully it won't hurt that much... 

Never ever believe people  when 
they say that they'll never leave you... 
never believe when they say they'll love 
you forever.. That they'll improve their
love... that you should value the
words they say... never ever...
especially when the relationship just
started... cause if you  do and it
didn't came out the way they said
it... you will just feel stupid... you
will just feel sorry for yourself... 

stupid for believing every bit of it...
especially when you tried your very
best.. gave all your efforts.. and in
trying you already hurt a lot of people
around you... you learned to lie.. you
tried to give time.. you tried to find
ways even though how risky it takes..
but you still tried... because it
makes you happy.. and makes someone
happy... but after all those happiness,
when everything changes.. 
you'll be left wounded.. left broken.
left hurt...

and when it really hurts a lot...