Wednesday, February 29, 2012

OMG!!! I'm OLD!!!!

it was just this morning that I was thinking about my age. or kahapon ba yun? I forgot... I actually forgot my age. So what I did was get my cellphone, and navigate my way to the Calculator application. typing:
1987 - 2011
ANSWER: 24
and it dawned on me!!! Oh My GULAY!!!! I'll be 25 this year!!! and I can't believe it! I don't want to believe it!!
I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOLLLLLDDDDD!!!!

and until this afternoon, I still can't accept the fact that I am so getting old!!! I'm still in the state of denial.
akala ko i'll be 24 this year.. but no!!!! I'll be turning 25!! (plus 1 really matters!)

Then naisip ko, siguro tama nga ang sabi nila, that when women reach a certain age, around 25, 26, 27, nakakaramdam na sila ng takot or kaba. The usual reason is that tumatanda na at wla pang jowa, if not my jowa nga pero d pa engage or parang malabo pa sa direction na yun, or hindi pa rin sila settled.

In my case, I wasn't afraid of any of those. I just felt that parang nawawala na ang kabataan ko. (MERON?). I don't know. I feel like I need to stop acting childish and be mature, in which I believe is something I can't easily let go. I felt like so many years have passed and wala paring nangyayaring tama sa buhay ko (Well, I think. meron ba?). I feel like tumatanda na nga ako pero parang wla akong growth intellectually (bobo much?). Parang ang dami pang kulang. parang feeling ko sa 24, turning 25 years na ito ang dami kung na miss na mga bagay-bagay. Dami ko parin hindi natutunan.. At it saddens me (arte?). And now... I'm troubled.

HNDI KO PARIN MATANGGAP NA MAGIGING 25 NA AKO THIS YEAR!!!!